i've been busy with many things the past days. i kept myself busy to help me forget things that happened the past weeks. i accepted a project which kept me busy from saturday night to monday afternoon. i felt like a college student again. it was really draining and we were really relieved when we finished it.
next week will be the start of holy week. for the past 7 years, i was always busy during this time of the year due to my involvement in our church choir. we rehearse almost everyday during holy week because we sing in 2 masses (washing of the feet mass & easter sunday salubong). this year will be different since i won't be actively involved in the parish activities due to other commitments.
i went to st. andrew's school this morning to attend my brother's graduation. if my memory serves me right, it was also march 28 when we graduated from elementary 11 years ago. there were a lot of changes in school. this is my first time to enter the new building because the graduation ceremonies was held at the new gym. during our time, graduation was held at the church. it starts with a mass then the graduation ceremonies follow. there were really a lot of changes in school (from the administrators, faculty, staff, school grounds, rules and many more) from the time we graduated from high school 5 years ago. but it is still the the school that i called my home for 10 years. :)
Monday, March 19, 2007
trust
today is the feast of St. Joseph and i heard mass this noon at the edsa shrine. i have a special devotion to St. Joseph because I was named after him.
the gospel today is fit for my situation. i can say that i can somewhat relate to the situation of St. Joseph in today's gospel. the priest gave a very meaningful homily. he talked about how we plan things. at the start of the day, we usually plan what to do for the day. but sometimes, what we plan doesn't push through and we ask God "Why?". he said we should change our question to "What?" we should ask God what are His plans and He allowed these things to happen. we should trust Him in His plans for us...
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i went out with my high school friends last Saturday at MOA. we had a good time eating dinner and halo-halo at razon's. (for pictures visit rowjie's blog). it was nice seeing them again. the past week was really difficult for most of us but we were able to get through those difficult moments with each other. i want to thank them all for staying beside me when i needed them the most and for giving really good advices. i also want them to know that i'm also here for them. again, thank guys! (esp. johnjan for the halo-halo!)
the gospel today is fit for my situation. i can say that i can somewhat relate to the situation of St. Joseph in today's gospel. the priest gave a very meaningful homily. he talked about how we plan things. at the start of the day, we usually plan what to do for the day. but sometimes, what we plan doesn't push through and we ask God "Why?". he said we should change our question to "What?" we should ask God what are His plans and He allowed these things to happen. we should trust Him in His plans for us...
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i went out with my high school friends last Saturday at MOA. we had a good time eating dinner and halo-halo at razon's. (for pictures visit rowjie's blog). it was nice seeing them again. the past week was really difficult for most of us but we were able to get through those difficult moments with each other. i want to thank them all for staying beside me when i needed them the most and for giving really good advices. i also want them to know that i'm also here for them. again, thank guys! (esp. johnjan for the halo-halo!)
Friday, March 16, 2007
for you...
where were you when i needed you most?
i thought you are a friend. when you needed me, i stood by you. i gave you all the help and support that you needed. i stood by you, willing to sacrifice for you. but now, the time i needed you the most, you never even dared to ask how i am and what was wrong even if it shows in my face that i've been going through something. you never showed your concern for me.
i do not expect you to reciprocate all the things i did for you but a simple message from you asking me how i am, will help me feel better. that is enough for me to believe that you are there for me.
maybe you never really cared for me. you just took me for granted. you used me...
i thought you are a friend. when you needed me, i stood by you. i gave you all the help and support that you needed. i stood by you, willing to sacrifice for you. but now, the time i needed you the most, you never even dared to ask how i am and what was wrong even if it shows in my face that i've been going through something. you never showed your concern for me.
i do not expect you to reciprocate all the things i did for you but a simple message from you asking me how i am, will help me feel better. that is enough for me to believe that you are there for me.
maybe you never really cared for me. you just took me for granted. you used me...
the art of letting go...
where do i start, to live my life alone?
i guess i'm learning, only learning,
learning the art of letting go.
- The Art of Letting Go by Mikaila
moving on and letting go are simple words but takes time to do.
maybe it is really better this way. i just have to accept the fact that things are not meant to be. i have to let go and move on even if these things are the hardest to do.
i know it will take time before i can say that i completely healed but i am willing to wait with the help of God.
i guess i'm learning, only learning,
learning the art of letting go.
- The Art of Letting Go by Mikaila
moving on and letting go are simple words but takes time to do.
maybe it is really better this way. i just have to accept the fact that things are not meant to be. i have to let go and move on even if these things are the hardest to do.
i know it will take time before i can say that i completely healed but i am willing to wait with the help of God.
Thursday, March 15, 2007
the truth hurts...
"i want you to know i know the truth, of course i know it..."
- from the song wind beneath my wings
i really do not feel good the past days and it really shows in my face. there were many things that happened the past days that burdened me. people are asking me why i am so quiet recently and i'm not my usual self. i really can't hide my feelings because it affected me a lot. i'm deeply hurt and i don't know when i will get over this. this is my first time to encounter this situation and i really don't know what to do.
i've been carrying this burden for the past five days. i can't work properly. sometimes i feel ok but most of the time, especially when i am alone, i really feel bad. i want to cry but i can't. i really wish i'm like the others who cry easily because they can release their feelings most of the times. but in my case, it is really difficult.
i want to thank my friends for their concern for me. for giving me their time and listening to me. it really means a lot to me.
i hope this will end soon...
- from the song wind beneath my wings
i really do not feel good the past days and it really shows in my face. there were many things that happened the past days that burdened me. people are asking me why i am so quiet recently and i'm not my usual self. i really can't hide my feelings because it affected me a lot. i'm deeply hurt and i don't know when i will get over this. this is my first time to encounter this situation and i really don't know what to do.
i've been carrying this burden for the past five days. i can't work properly. sometimes i feel ok but most of the time, especially when i am alone, i really feel bad. i want to cry but i can't. i really wish i'm like the others who cry easily because they can release their feelings most of the times. but in my case, it is really difficult.
i want to thank my friends for their concern for me. for giving me their time and listening to me. it really means a lot to me.
i hope this will end soon...